My Separation Anxiety

I Think I have Separation Anxiety

For the past four years my life has taken interesting twists and turns.

When I was in the news business I cared a lot about what people thought of me.

You had to, your paycheck, ratings and job security depended on numbers.

When I ran for public office in 2008 the nine months I spent on the campaign crushed a big chunk of my ego. I discovered I wasn’t as cool as I thought and people really didn’t respect you just because you were on television.

I used to play it fairly safe. I had opinions about issues but only revealed bits and pieces because I lived amongst the liberal bastion of Oregon where tolerance means, they’ll tolerate you as long as you agree or keep your conservative views well hidden.

When the BLM riots happened, when Oregon got soft on crime, when homeless folks took over the streets of our cities, I started to separate from culture because the crazy was just too far gone. I spoke out and got shouted down. But I didn’t stop.

COVID changed it all. Early on Kathy and I decided even if it cost us business, and it has, we were done. No more biting our tongue, no more protecting irrational people’s feelings, no more getting along if it meant following stupidity.

I’m sorry to say most of the things I was saying turned out to be true.

Now, the state of Oregon back peddles, a little, trying to get out of the mess it created. Problem is the ego’s and power of people at the center of the manipulation machine can’t say they were wrong but wiggle and squirm as they turn lies into something they think is truth.

I listened to an interview last night on Tucker Carlsons podcast that blew me away. Jenner Furst, a filmmaker who once described himself as a progressive, did some deep dive into COVID and what he found makes me sick to my stomach.

We’ve been duped but the, still mask wearers will never admit it. They’ll choke on their words before admitting they got suckered.

The problem is, we all did and if this guy is right, COVID injured many of us. Peer pressure revealed cultural fear and the desire by some to be controlled.

I find myself looking to Elohim more and more these days. I’m up in the morning doing my pre-workout. I dig into the scriptures, pull out devotionals and get right with God before going to the gym.

I read something out of Ephesians this morning that struck me and may strike you as well.

Ephesians 4:17

“You should no longer walk as the nations walk, in the futility of their mind, having been darkened in their understanding, having been estranged from the life of Elohim because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the hardness of their heart.  Who, having become callous, have given themselves ups o indecency, to work in uncleanness with greediness.”

For me, that defines the battle. I need to fight, but not against people but the principalities and powers of darkness that control them.

In fighting, I also don’t want to be hardened and callous.

I don’t know how to do that but I do know this new pre-workout is a first step for me.

I believe it will get even uglier as information is exposed by the new administration and the seekers of truth.

Darkness doesn’t give in easily and seeks to claim more victims, more powers through the art of lying.

Jesus promises peace without understanding….So for 2025 that’s what I ask for, for you and me. We are the truth seekers and we refuse to settle for anything else.